Womens Support Group

Womens support group @ church was introduced to me a little over a year ago. I was a "baby" Christian @ the time eh who am I kidding - I still am ~ but I'm more in my toddler stage... Anyhow I never envisioned myself in any type of "support" group. My life was upside down, I was sad, I felt lost, hopeless - I was broken and I needed help redefining myself.

How I got to that state is a long story, but never the less I got there, we all have the potential for hitting rock bottom one way or another - was it pride that made me think I would never be in a support group? It's like to say I am in a women's support group, says I have female issues within myself or the outside world in general - you know I just got to a point where I didn't care what that meant I needed something and I grasped on to anything at that time.

Let me tell you what my women's group isn't about - judging, insulting, hurting, hateful, negative - pretty much anything negative... does not exist.

What it is....It's God driven and facilitated by a wonderful woman who genuinely cares about each of us, Loving, Supportive, Encouraging, Embracing, Accepting, Acknowledging, Caring, Prayerful, Comforting - I attended my first time, choking on tears, I didn't speak probably the first several visits - I knew if I did I would be a mess, and honestly I had little faith and trust ~ However for some reason I came back every Tuesday, I needed to be there ~ hearing other women talk, was comforting, women who have lost their spouse, a child, a parent or other loved one, women who were in abusive relationships whether it was substance, physical, emotional, women who were going through or have been divorced, affairs, stress, depression - we came in all walks but faced similar challenges - I was not alone in my experiences. I never was alone, but I didn't understand this until I accepted Christ and became to immerse myself in God's Love and Word. Through strength in Christ and the shared stories and discussion I felt like I was no longer suffocating in my everyday life, I felt the wanting to live again. I felt myself opening up and sharing... through this journey I have learned how to forgive, really forgive - to let go, for me to to hold a wrong doing by someone is prideful, it not only hurts me, but hurts everyone I come into contact with, it keeps me from building REAL relationships with everyone including my own family. So I learned to let go and let God and live. Man that feels so good to not only say it but feel it. We are to forgive as it is obedient to the Lord - it is a choice and a decision that we make, when we take it to heart and give this forgiving thing a vigilant shot, we learn that this command is in our best interest as our reward in forgiveness is Freedom.

Staying angry @ others honestly just impairs our own ability to love and trust. In the end we hurt ourselves.

I am so thankful for the women's group @ FBCM - we learn together, cry together, laugh together, pray together ~ if you are a local friend and want to come along with me, please let me know! If you are a long distance friend I would love to help you with prayer, support group locations, and with some of the things I have learned. Feel free to comment!

Bless!

A sad, sad day

In my 37 years I have never seen anything so HORRIBLE in my life...

Yesterday I was sitting in my computer chair it was around 6 am, I was talking to Joseph on the phone while he was on the way to work.... the phone beeped in and I'm thinking who on earth is calling me this early in the morning??? Looking @ the caller ID - it was Mr. G. our neighbor - When I answered he said that there were 2 dogs on my property killing my birds... Sure enough when I ran outside I didn't see them @ first... and as I got closer to the pond I saw their heads bobbing around swimming after ducks, I also saw a bloody feathery massacre everywhere. Screaming and crying while running, I woke up Sabrina, Noel & Tre'. The girls ran outside and Tre followed behind... In his underwear grabbing whatever he could to chase them off which happened to be a golf club. Everyone is crying and screaming our dog Jedi is running around the pond but HATES water so he was little help UNTIL Tre' Jumped in the water in his underwear with the golf club... the black dog jumped out and Jedi chased him off... the yellow dog well lets just say he played golf with Tre' :-( meaning the dog was getting his butt whooped by the golf club... by the time the dog managed to get out of the pond he ran off, and all we were left with was a bunch of tears shared amongst us and several ducks barely alive or dead, as well as 7 chickens...dead. I was so sick and disgusted - people who dump off dogs (or any animals for that matter) , or don't lock the dogs they own into a yard - MAKE ME SICK. We brought in several ducks half alive... I believe the count was 7 , so far there are only 2 left :cry: Whip Cream and Spot. We lost 4 spitzhaubens, 2 brahmas, and 1 black star... and as far as ducks - I am not even sure there were so many... R.I.P - Short Bus (who passed in my arms), Molly, Hilarious, Tiny, Laser, Ghetto Duck, Omaley, and the several others that were so disfigured...

We are selling a good portion of our flock ... to fence in the rest of our property, buy a shot gun, paint gun, and whatever else we need to do to prevent this from every happening again.